Loving this Life

Reflections

2011-12-31T14:09:00.000-08:00

"We will open the book. Its pages are blank. We are going to put words on them ourselves. The book is called Opportunity and its first chapter is New Year's Day"

-Edith Lovejoy Pierce

On this last day of 2011, I am feeling some relief that this year is over. I can't say that any one event was particularly traumatic or life changing, but there were things that overall made this not my favorite year.

It started out in January with me in family court with my ex, and although in the end it all worked out, it was several months of major stress and doubt. Not to mention some seriously difficult financial times. It was also the year of car repairs, something I am never very well prepared for. It seems that is the one area that I tend to neglect, I think it just gets to be too much for me to keep up on, with the house, yard, work, kids, etc. But in the end, I've learned that I am stronger than I thought, and proper maintenance leads to less problems down the road. I hope to carry that lesson into 2012 regarding my own personal health as well. My experience with bursitis in April taught me just how debilitating severe pain can be. Let's face it, I am too young to have those worries on top of every other worry a single-mom faces. I ended my last week of December getting the last check-up I was long over-due for, and for me that is a starting point to focus this next year more on ME and my health.

At a memorial I recently attended for the mother of a friend of mine, he made the remark that his mom took far better care of everyone else than she did of herself. That really had an impact on me, because I know I am guilty of the same. This life is just too short to take for granted, and I am afraid I have fallen into the rut of everyday life where I am not taking the best care of myself.

I am hoping that the new year will bring me the courage to follow the dreams that I have for myself. I regret that fear has kept me idle, and not moving forward this past year or two to become the person I really want to be, and most importantly, set an example for my daughters that they can look up to.

All in all, I have nothing to complain about, I have two beautiful daughters and a nice home. I know many who faced real losses this past year, so I am grateful nothing that devastating happened to my own family. This time of year always has me a little melancholy, and this year more so, as my sister and nieces were not able to spend the holidays with us. I really missed not spending Christmas with those sweet girls. I am thankful though, for the time I got to spend with my own daughters, especially my oldest who is home from college for one more week. We haven't done anything exciting, but it's just been nice to hang out together.

I am looking forward to a new year and hope that it brings you health, happiness, opportunities, and most of all, peace. We can't ask for more than that.

Happy New Year & Happy Thoughts,

Lisa

Thankful...

2011-11-21T10:14:00.000-08:00

Think big thoughts but relish small pleasures.
~H. Jackson Brown, Jr.

We can only be said to be alive in those moments when our hearts are conscious of our treasures. ~Thornton Wilder

Reflecting today on all that I am thankful for...

My daughters

My family & friends

My home and the comfort it gives me

The country that I live in which allows me the freedoms we take for granted

A job that allows me to be home on the holidays with my loved ones

And the many small things that I try to stop and take notice of...

The change of seasons

The magic of the holidays and the festivities that surround them

A warm fire in my living room

Freshly baked cookies

A warm bubble bath

Flannel sheets

Hot coffee

Music & Art

The simple & amazing beauty of nature

The joy of giving gifts over receiving them

Using my hands to Craft, Cook, & Bake

What are you thankful for?

Wishing you Love, Warmth, & Happiness this Thanksgiving and always!

Happy Thoughts,

Lisa

Hello

2011-10-23T08:35:00.000-07:00

If nothing ever changed, there'd be no Butterflies.
-unknown

Well, as you can tell, I just can't find the time to blog regularly. Too much stuff going on with work, kids, home, etc.

I have been making some time for crafting when I can, and getting out my Halloween decorations. I hope to have some pictures up soon...

My youngest daughter turned 16 yesterday, oh, how the time flies! Next weekend she will have a slumber party with a few girlfriends, so I have been making little things for her party to make it extra special. She hasn't had a party in a year or two, so I am looking forward to it. Believe it or not, I kind of miss those slumber parties I used to have for my girls.

Isn't she cute? She is sweet, shy, smart, and such an old soul at 16.
This is quick pic I took w/ my phone just before we left for one of my my best friend's wedding earlier this month.

Otherwise, life just seems to roll on by, I continue to try and figure it all out, how to balance everything, and pay all the bills.

I know I'm not the only one who struggles with this on a daily basis, but sometimes I just wish I could figure it all out before I'm too old!! :)

I made a little inspirational picture, trying to remind myself to do all these things....

Well, I'm going to keep this short, after all, the lawn is calling to be mowed and the bathrooms to be cleaned...I know, you are so jealous of my EXCITING life!! Haha, but I am truly blessed, I have two of the most wonderful daughters a mother could ever wish for, and there isn't enough money in the world to buy that!

Happy Thoughts,

Lisa

This & That

2011-09-11T10:51:00.000-07:00

Attitude is a little thing that makes a big difference.

~Winston Churchill

It's been awhile since I've last posted, life just gets so busy. I find it hard sometimes to actually concentrate long enough to write words that make any sense.

I used a lot of stuff around our office to decorate cheaply with.

I've been back to work now for over a month, and the first few weeks of a new school year are so busy, I'm completely wiped out when I get home from work. Getting dinner ready, doing a few chores around the house/yard and preparing for the next day are sometimes the only thing I get done in the evening before it's time for bed.

I now officially have two "Juniors" in the house...one in high school and one in college. Time just keeps whizzing by and I can't believe I will be the mother of a 20 year-old in just a few days!

This is a cake I made for a good friend of mine for her birthday. It is dark chocolate cake with straberry cream cheese frosting. I used her homemade strawberry jam to flavor it. The flowers are from my garden.

I continue to work on my creative side, in the past week or two, I made my first wedding invitations for a friend's mother, I also made another friend a 2-tiered cake for her daughter's 13th birthday. One of my best friends is getting married next month and I am helping her with wedding favors and other goodies.

I am by no means a professional, but the cake tasted delicious! The bottom is a triple-layer dark chocolate, the top vanilla, all with vanilla cream cheese frosting.
A topper I made for the cake.
On the first day of school, I made some cute goodie bags and other cute printables with a Back-to-School theme design to welcome back the staff at the school I work at. My boss and I set up a table in the lounge with breakfast goodies and coffee. I think it helped to start the year off, keeping morale up is always a priority in these difficult economic times when education is constantly hit with budget cuts.

As I've said before, I work with a great staff, and I love making them smile. I like to consider the work I do for these little events as practice, which help to hone my skills as a crafter, baker, and cook.

My garden is growing, but showing signs of coming to an end. This year my tomatoes came in much later than they have in the past, so I didn't have time to experiment much with new recipes before I returned to work. Last night I did make a delicious batch of tomato soup with homemade croutons. There is something so satisfying about making meals from scratch and especially using ingredients you have grown in your own garden, without harmful pesticides or chemicals.

Homegrown tomatoes

My first ever success with cantaloupe, it was so yummy!

Over the summer, the girls and I took our annual trip to Lake Tahoe, and this year my sister and nieces joined us. It was fun to show them around to the beautiful places of Tahoe and get to spend that time with them.

A little 6" cake I made for the girls and I.

The inside came out looking like the colors of ocean water.

Maybe it's the end of summer, and the impending return of my daughter back to college, but I always get a little melancholy at this time of year. There is always so much to do in preparation for the move back and the days are going fast with the busy-ness of a new school year for my younger daughter and all the activities she has right now. I have been thinking a lot about what I will do when my youngest heads to college. There is the financial aspect that brings up my worries for how I will afford to send her to college and also support myself when I will no longer receive the financial help from her father. Then there is the emotional side, when I will possibly have a true "empty nest". My girls mean the world to me, but I have always tried to have my own hobbies and friends, so that when it is time for them to spread their wings, I will not fall apart. The last thing I would ever want is for them to feel guilty or worry about me being alone.

A person who has good thoughts cannot ever be ugly. You can have a wonky nose and a crooked mouth and a double chin and stick-out teeth, but if you have good thoughts they will shine out of your face like sunbeams and you will always look lovely. ~Roald Dahl

I like to think that there will be a new door opening for me when I am alone, more time to explore and develop the passions I have. As each birthday comes for me now, I do feel a sense of urgency in figuring out "what will I do with my life". There are dreams and hopes I have that I am starting to worry I am running out of time for. I find myself looking for inspiration from women who started businesses or became financially successful at a "later age" in life.

I realize I am sharing a lot of really personal feelings now, but my worst fear is that I will spend my whole life dreaming of what I want to do, but never finding the time or resources to actually make it a reality. I don't want to look back on my life with regret, and feel sadness for all the things that could have been.

I love my job, but I also know that it is not what I am truly passionate about, and it does not provide me with the full financial support I need to keep my house and live a comfortable life on my own. I don't need a lot, but I also don't want to spend the rest of my life living paycheck to paycheck as I am now, and always worrying about money.

Happiness is an attitude. We either make ourselves miserable, or happy and strong. The amount of work is the same. ~Francesca Reigler

In essence, I am trying to figure out how to turn my hobbies and passions into something more, something that I can possibly earn some income from. I know there are many women out there looking for and doing the same thing, so I am not unique in my aspirations.

I would love hearing from other women who share the same feelings and who are turning their dreams into reality.

Well, my chores are calling, two days off on the weekend don't leave much time for errands and chores, so it's off to my lawn-mower I go now...

Wishing you happy thoughts,
Lisa

A little Fairy Magic...

2011-07-26T16:36:00.000-07:00

Every time a child says, "I don't believe in fairies," there is a fairy somewhere that falls down dead. ~James Matthew Barrie, Peter Pan

The first of three banners I made for inside the house.

I have mentioned before that I have two little nieces, now 4 and soon to be 7 years old, that I absolutely adore. Last week my sister and the girls came to visit. We, my girls, my parents, and I, were so excited to have them come, they hadn't been here since Christmas, and hadn't visited during the summer in over two years.

I had recently been in Southern California visiting with them when I picked up my daughter from college. She goes to school just a half hour from where they live in Carlsbad, CA, so I get to see them when I move her down and pick her up each year. We also try to make another trip over spring break to visit all of them, "my girls", as I affectionately refer to my daughters, nieces, and sister.

I decorated the kitchen and dining room to match the theme.

On my last visit in June, the little girls and I planned a "Fairy Picnic" for when they would come to visit in July. The girls love nature and being outside, and of course, they love fairies! I let them help me decide the menu, just a simple lunch of tea sandwiches, salad, and fresh fruit "kabobs". I added in one of their favorite foods, deviled eggs, and tea cakes for dessert.

I included lots of little details, such as bubbles, a fairy door, comfy blankets, little bottle necklaces with pink "fairy dust" (aka, glitter) in them. I forgot to take a picture of the fairy dust necklaces, but they were a big hit, and had to be re-filled several times, as the girls dusted everything in site!

This little table was all ready for them to put on their crowns, wings, and grab their wands before heading outside.

My little candy bars, the back had the quote: "Just living is not enough", said the butterfly. "One must have sunshine, freedom, & a little flower".

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The picnic area all ready for them outside.

A table set for the "big girls".

All the flowers I used were from my own garden.

I used this table to keep all the food on, protected from flies and bees.

I forgot to take pictures of the food before we started serving, but I managed to get a couple shots before it was all gone.

They were so excited when they saw the picnic area all set up for them!

I think I had myself as excited for this picnic as they were; it was all I thought of and worked on my first 3 weeks off from work. I tried to come up with inexpensive ideas, using my favorite color them of pink and green. I tried to think of every detail that would make the day magical.
A shot of India in her wings & crown.
India, 4
Sahara, 6

We had such a lovely day, spent mostly outside. After lunch, we read stories, then my girls set up two slip-n-slides out on our front lawn, and the little girls had a blast sliding down the hill. After that, they played on the trampoline, that sits so lonely in another area of my property. My sister and I went for a walk down by the river, while my girls fixed dinner for everyone. We ended the day setting off leftover fireworks from the 4th of July, in our backyard, it was truly magical. It was definitely a day to remember, and it lived up to the (high) expectations I couldn't help but have after all the work and anticipation.

The details...
Fairy Crowns I made for the girls, using candle rings I found on the clearance isle at Michael's.

Little Fairy Door, purchased from Lovinglee Crafted/Etsy, I hung it in a tree right next to the picnic area.

Close up on Bubbles Tag, Clip Art from revidevi/Etsy Shop
Bubbles purchased for $1 at Walmart, prettied up w/ ribbon and handmade tags.

Little Gumball Pipettes, Gumballs & Plastic Pipettes from Polka Dot Market

Little milk bottles & paper straws, purchased from Polka Dot Market.

Wands that I found on sale at Michael's, they came in a kit, but I used my own ribbon, tulle, and paper flowers to embellish them.

Skewers I decorated w/ ribbon for the fruit.
" I Believe in Fairies" Stickers we all wore.
An inexpensive candle I found at Ikea, I made a little "tu tu" for it w/ leftover ribbon, tulle, & flowers.

Little picks I made to match everything.
Bags with their initials for little gifts I had been collecting.

Fairy wings I "re-purposed" for my little niece. They were found in my youngest daughters closet, long ignored by her.

My sister got so comfy under the trees, she took a little "Fairy Nap"

I will fondly remember this summer for the wonderful visit I had with my sister and her precious girls, especially our little "Fairy Picnic."

Happy Thoughts,
Lisa

Summertime

2011-07-14T20:20:00.000-07:00

There shall be eternal summer in the grateful heart.
~Celia Thaxter

I think most of us do love summer, the warmer weather, kids (& grown-ups) on vacation, all the fresh fruit & veggies in season...it's just a more laid back, fun time of year.

I am fortunate to be off for several weeks every summer during part of the time my kids are on vacation from school. I use a good part of this time to catch up on all the chores, especially in my garden, that I have not kept up with during the rest of the year.

I am truly thankful for this time off, it means I don't make as much money at my job as I'd like, but it's also a chance to re-group and fact the challenges at new school year at work always brings.

I love having some time to visit with friends, spend time with my kids, catch up on movies, enjoy the outdoors with daily walks with my friend/neighbor. I am also able to spend time on the crafts and cooking that I enjoy so much.

One of my favorite times is the 4th of July. I love decorating the house up in Red, White, & Blue. Up until last year, our town used to have a big fireworks display "downtown" by the water, which is where I live. We always had a full house of friends and family over to eat and watch the fireworks. We could literally see them from our front yard. Even more fun for us adults, was the people-watching. Thousands of people would cram downtown to catch a glimpse of this patriotric tradition that I remember from my high school days.

Sadly, with the poor economy, our city decided for the second year in a row, not to have the fireworks display. The girls still have friends over, but we have definitely pared down our celebration. This year we did a few of our own little fireworks in the backyard, something my girls choose to spend their own money on.

I still enjoy putting out my little display of decorations, some that I have had for more years than I can remember.

Hope you all had a lovely 4th of July too!

Happy Thoughts,
Lisa

My Happy Place

2011-06-28T14:01:00.000-07:00

It takes hands to build a house, but only hearts can build a home. ~Author Unknown

This is my absolute favorite time of year, when I can catch up on so many things around the house that I enjoy. I have been crafting some special little treats for my nieces who will be visiting soon. We are having a "Fairy Picnic" in my garden while they are here and I'm so excited to make it extra special for them.

This is on the "upper" level of my terraced backyard and where I will lay down a blanket (pink, of course) for our Fairy Picnic!

I have also been working tirelessly in my yard, catching up on everything I neglected in early Spring when my injury kept me flat on my back and work kept me too busy to find the time to get outside.

My garden is growing, this year I have tomatoes, Japanese eggplant, cantaloupe, red & yellow sweet peppers, Jalapeno peppers, herbs, pumpkins, lettuces, & various varieties of squash growing.

Every morning I wake up and head directly outdoors to my truly "happy place", my backyard. I can easily spend hours out there, pruning, sweeping, watering, etc.

It brings me such pleasure to see the perennials that I have planted over the years flourish and fill in every space possible. I keep a rather overgrown, somewhat "messy" cottage style garden, which works perfectly for me. The front yard is a little more "orderly", but I really love the overgrown style of an English country garden that is more like what I have in the back. I do not get caught up in perfection, and if a plant can't survive in my yard, then it's replaced with something that can.

Our climate is hot and dry, so getting the feel of an English garden can be a challenge. Roses, hydrangeas, and lavender thrive in the sometimes grueling conditions of summer here, and they are really my favorites.

This is the door to my bedroom, it opens directly out to my backyard, a feature of my 1938 house that I LOVE!

I love to put in several hours of hard work, then relax with a cold drink and a book on the patio and enjoy my garden. It is a place where my family & friends can share a meal, play some ping pong, and just spend time together.

Still working on this area, had to replace the arch, the old one finally gave in to rot and a storm. Sad to have to cut back over half of my climbing Eden roses to get the old arch out and the new one in.

I Hope you have enjoyed a peek at my happy place, where is yours????

Happy Thoughts,
Lisa

This is who I am...

2011-06-22T11:52:00.000-07:00

To teach how to live with uncertainty, yet without being paralyzed by hesitation, is perhaps the chief thing that philosophy can do. ~Bertrand Russell

Hi there, I'm finally taking the time to blog again...well, I have the time to blog again. I missed it, I really did.

Because the school year is over, I have a few weeks off for summer vacation, and I am so relieved. I've said before how much I love my job, and I really do...but it can really be a stressful job at times. Multi-tasking in an understatement and dealing with the up and down emotions of parents is always a sensitive task. After all, teachers and school personnel spend as much, and sometimes more time, with your kids. And what do all parents, me included, feel the the most emotional, protective and possessive about? Our own children of course.

Finding the time to run a household, including the yardwork, errands, school functions, and work full-time (plus some), can be physically & emotionally exhausting.

Anyway, the past several months have had me on an emotional and financial rollercoaster. Making it financially as a single parent will always be a challenge, but I'm hoping the future brings me a little more stability than the recent months have.

As I get older, and go through life's good and bad experiences, I learn so much about myself. I feel like until the day I die, I will constantly be learning who I am and I how I deal with the joys and challenges that come my way.

I've decided that I can be thought of as a person who has a lot of contradictions, but I like to think of it more as I'm someone who is open to many ways of thinking, and not limited to what I can do and feel. Having said this, I also know that I am always learning, about who I am and how I deal with those around me.

No one is perfect... that's why pencils have erasers.
~Author Unknown

I am...

someone who loves my children more than anything, but still enjoys the time away when I'm with friends.

a woman who doesn't feel the need to have a man in her life to be complete or feel loved, but still believes in love & romance.

a person who is loyal to a fault, but in return expects the same from friends & loved ones.

a mother who has high expectations for her children, but will love them unconditionally, no matter where their path in life leads.

someone who can be hard on others, but who is most hard on herself.

a person who believes in science and facts, but keeps an open mind to the possibilities & magic that make up this universe.

a woman who sometimes has a hard time focusing on one task at a time, but is passionate about so many things.

a person who can be happy and content alone, but loves being around people.

a woman who can forgive, if not forget, when someone is truly sorry.

a person who is basically liberal in her beliefs, but has strong morals.

someone who is reluctant to make changes, but is learning how.

a woman who tries to be sensitive, but will always answer you honestly.

a person who gets caught up in the little things and the small scale of life right around her, but tries to take the time to see the big picture and what's really important in the world.

a woman who hates making mistakes, but tries to learn from them when she does.

nowhere near perfect, but overall content with who I am.

I am...a mother, daughter, sister, aunt, friend.

I want to be the best mother, daughter, sister, aunt, friend, employee I can be.

I am human.

Use what talents you possess; the woods would be very silent if no birds sang except those that sang best.

~Henry van Dyke

What about you? Who are you? What makes you who you are? How do you work on making you better each and every day?

Writing it down can give you a wonderful perspective on where you are and where you want to be.

Happy Thoughts,

Lisa

Life's Little Surprises

2011-04-22T10:21:00.000-07:00

"Although the world is full of suffering, it is full also of the overcoming of it."

~Helen Keller~

Well, life has given me yet another little surprise, this time in the form of several weeks of constant pain. Not what you were thinking, huh?

Yeah, I wasn't really prepared for this either, it has put a real kink in my Spring plans. As you can imagine, on a 1/3 acre, I have lots of yard work at this time of year. It's when I put in most of the work, so that I can enjoy my garden all summer.

I woke up one Sunday morning, if you can call it that at 3:20am, almost three weeks ago, with excruciating pain in my left shoulder blade/back area. Now, I had actually been feeling a little pain in that spot every morning for a few days prior, but I took some ibuprofen and ignored it. I had started working in my garden earlier that week a couple evenings after work. I had also worked on Saturday at my friend's Tux shop as I had been doing for the past couple months. Then, POOF! I go from a week of hard work and accomplishment to flat on my back.

I have been to the Dr. several times, been given a cortisone shot (no help at all), been X-rayed, medicated, and lucky enough to receive free chiropractic services...some of which has helped, and at least gotten me mobile again. Sitting here at my computer is probably the hardest...I imagine my time at work in front of a computer 5 days a week has contributed to the bursitis and arthritis that I've now been diagnosed with. Sleep position also plays heavily as a factor. I've researched a lot, trying to find healthy, easy solutions to my new found problem.

I've also learned a lot about pain, and the emotional and physical toll it can take on a person. I've always been pretty healthy, so dealing with this kind of debilitating pain, that literally stopped me in my tracks, has been a humbling experience. Oh, how I appreciate a strong and healthy body!! I am trying hard to learn from it. To learn to listen to my body when it is trying to say "ENOUGH!" and letting things go.

The most important thing I think I learned from this though, is the gift of friendship (& family) that I have. I missed a whole week of work, and the past 3 weeks of my second job, a first for me due to illness/injury. My boss and co-workers were there to provide dinners for my daughter and I, so sweet and generous! Another friend had her husband come over and mow my much overgrown lawn...no small task if you've ever seen my front yard. Mowing the lawn was the task I had planned for the day my shoulder gave out. The Dr. gave me a firm "no" when I desperately told him of my plans for the day. Little did I know at the time that I'd be down for so many days and lose so much sleep. My mother was there everyday day to bring us food and drive me to the various Dr. appointments I had all week. I am blessed to have her so close.

I am still in some pain everyday, but I am at least functional now. My youngest daughter and I were even able to make a quick trip to visit my daughter, sister, and precious nieces in Southern CA over this past week while we are on Spring Break. I drove down with ice on my back the whole way and a good supply of 800mg Motrin. I probably shouldn't have pushed myself, but spending time with beloved family has a way of healing the spirit.

Our days with my daughter, sister and nieces were spent visiting, eating home-cooked meals and making cake pops together (above pic). It was such a joy to have all 6 of us girls together for a few days. I love them all so much!

I have yet to get back in my garden, something that bothers me everyday. I plan to do a little work over the next few days, but I will jump back in gradually and take breaks often. I am still learning my limitations. Ugh, "limitations", not a word I'm fond of.

So, for now, I will keep dreaming of a personal masseuse, a pain free body, financial stability, and homegrown tomatoes....

Free flowers from my garden, one of my favorite simple pleasures!

Happy Thoughts & Happy Easter!
Lisa

Join me...

2011-03-30T21:37:00.001-07:00

Come check out my new cooking/baking blog over here, I have a quick and easy recipe to share...

Checking in...

2011-03-27T13:05:00.000-07:00

I still find each day too short for all the thoughts I want to think, all the walks I want to take, all the books I want to read, and all the friends I want to see. -John Burroughs

Life has been so busy, I miss my blog...last weekend I had full intentions of writing a post, but I never found enough time to sit and do it.

I've been checking email on my phone, haven't even touched this computer keyboard in a week. I miss visiting all of my favorite blogs.

I thought I might have some time to really write something good today. But, nope, not going to happen.

I'm trying to get motivated to do yardwork with pictures from last year. My garden looks nothing like this right now!! :(

It has finally stopped raining here in Norther CA, and my poor neglected yard awaits...as do the bathrooms, which are screaming to be cleaned.

So for now...yes, I am alive. Life is busy, but as always, I'm staying positive. Working 6 days a week leaves only Sunday to catch up on the house, yard, etc.

Weeknights I have been baking and crafting when I can, but sadly, I don't have a picture to show for it.
Oh well, there will be more baking and crafting in the near future.

Been hanging with my college girl this past week, but she's back on her way to school now...always a funky day on the day she leaves.

Write more soon...I hope!

Happy Thoughts,
Lisa

It's all about Birthdays...

2011-03-06T11:52:00.000-08:00

A birthday is just the first day of another 365-day journey around the sun. Enjoy the trip. ~Author Unknown

I am not one of those people who dread their birthday each year.
I love birthdays.
I love celebrations, and birthdays are little celebrations of the day we were born.
I can't say I am crazy about getting older...but then again, what's the alternative, right?!

I think it was perfect that my birthday landed on a Sunday this year.
After all, it was my only day off all week.
It was the finale to a week filled with good things.

To start...the little second grader at my school.
He gets to stay!
I'm so thrilled for him, you can't even imagine.
It's just temporary at this point, but he is with a family who truly wants him!
And they live in the neighborhood of our school.
I love when life works out like that...when people who truly deserve goodness in their lives receive it.
It's funny how a few days can go by and things can turn around in such a positive way.

Friday night I was treated to a delicious dinner out by my parents. I also got a very special present that night. My girls and parents all pitched in and gave me a gift card for this...

Something I've been wanting for a long time!

I LOVE the Apple Store...I wanted to buy it there as opposed to ordering it online. Well first, I didn't want to wait for it to ship. You don't even have to wait in line there, they ring you up right there wherever you are standing, so COOL!

I had a hard time walking down the street after my purchase, I couldn't keep my eyes off my new little friend...actually it's more than that....I think I'm in LOVE!

I think that whenever your heart desires something, the longer you have to wait for it, the sweeter the satisfaction when it finally becomes yours.

Such a good weekend, filled with good food, my family, friends, some work, and a little splurge.

Birthdays are good for you. Statistics show that the people who have the most live the longest. ~Larry Lorenzoni

It turned out to be raining, so I couldn't work in my yard today as planned, but maybe that was a little gift from Mother Nature, so that I would relax a little :)

I'm a happy girl right now...Birthdays are pretty awesome!

Age is pointless, no way do I feel the 44 years my birth certificate says, in my heart I'm easily 25!

Next week I hope to have some more great news to share, but for now I won't jinx it ;)

Wishing you MANY birthdays and Happy Thoughts EVERYDAY,

Lisa

Life and other random thoughts...

2011-02-25T23:00:00.000-08:00

"Have a heart that never hardens, a temper that never tires, a touch that never hurts." Charles Dickens

It's really cold here again.
Every time I hear the heater go on, I think of all the money I already owe PG&E, ugh...

There is a boy at my school who is leaving.
He's going to live with a new foster family.
It is breaking my heart.
He is the cutest little guy.
A sweet little second grader.
He likes the "panacakes" at McDonald's. That's not a typo-that's how he says pancakes :)
How could his mother not want him?
Life is so unfair sometimes.
How could I ever complain of anything, ever again?
I have even considered becoming a foster parent, just so he could come live with me and my girls.
It's a big decision.
I'm not sure if it's the right time in my life, but someday I think I might like to do this.
I love kids.
Everyday they make me smile at work.

Tonight I'm spending the evening chaperoning my daughter's high school yearbook class.
It's one of their deadlines, and they work til 10pm getting their pages done once a month or so.
Their advisor/teacher is out of town and they needed a parent chaperone.
I'm really just here playing around on the computer and reading.
I enjoy it though.
They are good company.
They play good music.
The kids are totally self-sufficient.
I baked them chocolate chip pan cookies and popped them some popcorn.
They are so appreciative.
They even bought me Starbucks :)
I love being a mom.

I miss my big girl.
I am so proud of her, it makes my heart swell.
I can't imagine what it will be like when my baby girl will be away at college too.
I would never hold them back.
As hard as it is for me, I encourage them to spread their wings and fly...
I want them to do everything in life I was too afraid to do.
I think that's what we all want as parents.
I am raising smart, independent girls.
I learn from them everday.
I love them so much.

Tomorrow is Saturday and I will be working job #2.
Then some fun times with the gang at job #1, pizza and bowling.
The weekend is going to fly by.
But life seems to fly by, doesn't it?
All we can do is hold on and make it the very best we can.

Happy Thoughts,
Lisa

Little Blessings

2011-02-20T10:26:00.000-08:00

"Opportunity is missed by most people because it is dressed in overalls and looks like work." -Thomas A Edison

I've missed blogging the past few weeks, but there just hasn't been enough time in the day.

These past weeks I am thankful for the little blessings in my life. As you know, I've been trying to find a second job. Life always seems to offer opportunities when you least expect it.

After work one Friday, I stopped by to visit a dear friend of mine from high school. She happens to own her own tuxedo rental/prom dress business, in fact, the most popular one around. This visit turned out to be just one of those little opportunities. My friend, G, has always been a supportive, giving person. Even if we go months without talking, I know it won't make a difference in our friendship. We had many fun and crazy days in high school, there was never a dull moment with this girl around. Some of my best and most vivid memories involve G.

When I casually mentioned I am still looking for a second job, she immediately asks if I'm available to work on weekends, now is her busiest time of the year, as it is officially "prom season", so she is even open Sundays. She lets me know she will get back to me, I had not been home 15 minutes before she called and asked if I could come in the following day. Her shop is right down the street, so the convenience could not be more perfect. The gals she has working are a fun group of ladies and the atmosphere is always upbeat.

So at least during prom season, my Saturdays will be spent helping young girls select just the perfect dress for one of the best high school memories they will hopefully have.

Working 6 days a week does not come without sacrifice, of course missing time with my daughter is the biggest. Trying to get all the errands and chores I usually spend my weekened doing, will be a little more challenging to accomplish. The past two weekends I have been lucky enough to have Monday off due to the President's Day holidays, so the real test in organization has not yet been passed.

In addition to my work away from home, I also recently completed a little project for my boss and friend at the school I work at. I loved doing this for her, I feel blessed to work with such a wonderful lady. She threw a shower for her sister who is having her first baby, so I was honored to be asked to be a part of her special day, by designing some candy bars and a banner. I can't wait to hear how it all turned out, and hope her sister will know how special she wanted to make her baby shower.

A fun banner welcoming baby Noah!

Little placecards to set at each plate for the guests' selected entree.

Love the color combo!

I hope your life is filled with wonderful little opportunities as well!

Happy Thoughts,

Lisa

Sharing the Love...

2011-02-07T21:21:00.000-08:00

“Love is the condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own.”-Robert Heinlein

I was planning on writing a post today about what I've been up to the past week or so, since my last post. I will fill you in briefly, but now, in just the last few minutes, my direction has changed a bit.

Rebecca, from Walnut & Vine, left me a comment suggesting I check out another blog, called Blondie'N'SC. I was intrigued, and clicked on the link. I was so moved by her post, her words were emotional, honest, and from the heart. I related to so much of what she wrote about, it brought me to tears.

So first, I want to thank Rebecca, and I want to suggest you check out both of these wonderful blogs. There are so many amazing women out there in this world, I am constantly thrilled and surprised by them.

This past week and half, I have had such a tremendous load off my mind since the trial, but also the burden of trying to make up for another huge cut to my income. A couple friends paid me to make cupcakes for them, I took a small order for Valentine Candy bars from an old friend from high school, and I even worked at buying gold this past weekend with a friend. None of it has proven to be super lucrative, but every extra dollar or two helps. I also got my taxes done earlier than I ever have, and the small return coming will definitely help.

I love being creative, so the candy bars fill my creative soul more than my pocket book. Valentine's day has kind of snuck up on me, so here I am at the last minute making up inexpensive little care packages for my sweet nieces and daughter. I love the idea of them getting a mail delivery with little surprises from me, letting them know I am thinking of them.

Thank you Traci, hope your kiddos have fun handing them out!

This coming weekend, I wish you a Valentine's Day filled with love, whether it be from your husband, boyfriend, children, parents, or friends...just sweet, simple LOVE.

Happy Thoughts and Warm Hearts,

Lisa

Relief and a New Challenge

2011-01-29T11:25:00.000-08:00

If you tell the truth you don't have to remember anything. ~Mark Twain

Some of you that follow my blog may know that I have been in the middle of court issue with my ex-husband. It has been dragging on since last August when I was first served papers at work. Not exactly how you want to start your day, but there is was.

Due to this and that, our court date had been postponed until this past Wednesday, Jan. 26th.

So, after months of trying to prepare my own paperwork (I did not have money to hire a lawyer, he did), taking a deposition, and having my bank records subpoenaed, we finally had our "day in court" so to speak.

As you can imagine, I was VERY nervous. I have never done anything like this before. When we divorced, we each had lawyers and settled everything outside the courtroom, so we never had to face a judge.

My ex had been trying to show that I had all this "extra" income that I was not disclosing, and since he became unemployed last May, was asking for a termination of the life-time spousal support which he had agreed to pay when we came to our final Marital Settlement Agreement when we divorced. We were married for a long time, over 16 years at the time of our separation, and almost 20 by the time the divorce was final.   I gave up any rights to his pension and took half of our debt. I also paid all my lawyer fees that he was supposed to help pay, and eventually I bought him out of our family home. In turn, he agreed to pay the spousal support, which I was entitled to based on how long we were married.  He asked that I have to start working full-time, and I did.

Now, let's remember that I was completely devastated at that time, I had been in love with this man for 18 years when we separated. I thought I would truly die of a broken heart. Little did I know that time and maturity would become my friend, and I would learn to live on my own, be happy and come to realize that everything happens for a reason, even things that can hurt so bad. I put up with so much bad behavior back then, I don't even know what I was thinking. Love can really make you blind. It's hard to even imagine that was me back then, but in time I realized that I fit the exact definition of "co-dependent".

I have worked very hard to keep my home and give my girls everything they deserve. My marriage did not work out, but what did come out of it are the most amazing children. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think about how blessed I am to have them.

As you know, and I've been very open about this on my blog, I have tried to make some extra money since I lost the income I was receiving from child support for my oldest daughter, when she turned 18.  She turned 18 during the same week I moved her into college and we have been struggling to make ends meet since then. I have been very "creative" with my finances, we have cut back on a lot of extras, I sold all my gold jewelry, had a garage sale, tried selling crafts and baked goods, cashed out vacation time, used savings, etc. to get through the past 15 months. Basically, I've tried everything short of actually getting a second job away from home, mostly because I don't want to leave my younger daughter home alone at night and want to try to maintain a decent quality of life. No amount of money can replace the time I have with my kids, I have chosen to be with them and cut back a little, rather than be away from them by working a second job so I could buy more.

So, back to the trial. I brought one of my best, most dear friends with me. She has been with me through the best and worst times of my life for the past 14 or so years. She is my rock, and I knew she was the one I wanted there with me on this day. We have been friends since our daughters were in 1st grade together, they are now in college.

We tried to temper my nerves by joking around, and it definitely helped. There is nothing like a little laughter to lighten things up!

The judge was a little intimidating!!  What I mean is, she did not mess around, but this turned out to be in my favor. She saw right through all my ex's BS. You cannot imagine my relief when I realized she was not going to consider even a bit of what he was trying to prove. He was actually reading my blog posts in court!! She told his lawyer that she was perfectly capable of reading them for herself, and made him stop. His lawyer tried to object to many of my questions, she told him OVERRULED!! I loved it!! I was so worried about some of his false claims, and equally worried the judge wouldn't see the truth, but she did!! Not only did she refuse to add to my income, as the ex and his lawyer were trying to do, but she scolded him for trying to make it look like he had nothing, because he was hiding it all in his wife's name. Boy was he rattled! I felt so good when I was questioning him, I kept thinking of more things to ask and when it was my turn to be questioned, his lawyer only asked 2 or 3 questions and then I got to give my testimony!! I cannot tell you how glad I was that I did not hire an attorney. I didn't have the money in the first place, but if I had borrowed it from someone, it would have just been a big a huge waste of money. The end result would have been the same. The judge did not terminate the support, she gave him 3 months to get a job. She did have to temporarily suspend the spousal support, the key word being temporary. She issued a "Seek Work" order and he has to report to me monthly, showing that he has contacted at least 20 companies a month.

So, yes, things are going to be very difficult financially the next few months for me and the girls. I have already applied to two different places for a second job, and we will be trying to find more ways we can cut back. I will be working on my taxes this weekend, hopefully I'll get enough back to help out with the money I'm going to lose. The judge was sympathetic in the end, telling me, unfortunately, she couldn't consider his spouse's income in factoring the support, and because he is currently unemployed, that had to be considered. The law says that if the paying party's ability to pay has changed, that has to be considered. Basically the numbers are punched into a computer program, and the judge has to go by those numbers.   But, she reminded me this is just temporary, and he will have to notify me within 48 hours of re-employment when he does get a job. She acknowledged that she could see I was just squeaking by on my income and the support I have been receiving and with this reduction, it will put me below my standard of living. The vindication alone made me feel so happy and relieved.

The bottom line, we will survive.

I do wonder how my ex can live with himself. He must know, that he is not just taking money away from me, but also our kids. He lives in a large house with a pool, and drives a BMW, it's a little hard to feel sorry for him. He doesn't help with our daughter's college expenses and pays nothing more than his court ordered child support for our younger daughter. That must be a very lonely home.

But, it is time to once again move on, and I have no plans to write of this again. These past few months have been filled with stress and anxiety, to the point that I didn't feel like myself. That is now gone, and I am ME again! It ain't gonna be easy...but we do what we have to, right?!?

I also want to say thank you to all my friends, co-workers, blog-readers, and family who have been such a wonderful source of support to me, especially these past several months. I truly feel loved!

Wishing you love and happiness!
Happy Thoughts,
Lisa

Worry and something new...

2011-01-16T11:28:00.000-08:00

Worry never robs tomorrow of its sorrow, it only saps today of its joy. ~Leo Buscaglia

The stress and pressure of life has been getting me a little down lately...maybe it's this gloomy weather we've been having lately here in Northern CA...or maybe it's just January, my least favorite month of the year.

The whole purpose of this blog is to stay positive and find happiness...so bear with me here while I feel sorry for myself...I'll snap out of it soon!

I still have a personal issue coming up in the next week or so that I've been worrying about, but I'm trying to remember that I can only do so much. I am comforted by the encouraging words of my friends, family, and co-workers, the people who really know me and know that my first priority is and will always be my children. Without this support, then I'd really have something to worry about.

On a positive note...I am still looking at several different volunteer opportunities. One would be my dream job, but will require a large amount of training and time, so I'm not sure if this is the right time for it, but it's something I would really like to do someday. The program is called CASA, or Court Appointed Special Advocate. Here is a description I took off the website to best describe what a CASA does:

The goal of Court Appointed Special Advocates is to prevent abused and neglected children from becoming lost in the Juvenile Dependency system. When matching a CASA Volunteer with a child, the objective is to ensure that the child's best interest is represented. The volunteer has four essential roles as an advocate:

1. To be the child's voice in court, representing his/her best interests.

2. To assist the Juvenile Court by researching and assessing the circumstances of each case and report their recommendations and findings.

3. To continue to monitor the progress of the case as it moves through the system.

4. To become a source of support for the child.

The CASA volunteer's ultimate goal is to move the child out of temporary placement into a safe and permanent home. This could mean return to the parents, adoption, the appointment of a legal guardian, or some other permanent living arrangement that satisfies the Court and fulfills the child's needs.

CASA volunteers are not attorneys, but rather they are citizen advocates. They are ordinary people from various walks of life who do extra-ordinary things in the lives of abused and neglected children in our community.

Doesn't this sound amazing? Definitely something I would like to do at some point in my life. For now though, I am joining forces with a local group that started up on FB in to help fight crime and the blight that is increasingly taking over here in my city. The city that I live in has faced many changes over the past several years, and very few have been good ones. Crime and violence have increased at a rate that is downright scary. With the poor economy, it's only gotten worse. Most of us have considered moving away, and many have, but that's really not the solution and for many, like myself, I can't afford to sell my home in this low housing market anyway.

So, what's the alternative? For me, it's a no brainer...we have to find ways to improve our city, by coming together and fighting back. I am excited to be a part of this group...my children grew up here, I own a home here, and I still have a lot of friends in this city. I can't just give up, I have to have the faith that things can get better. I have seen before the amazing things a community can do when they pull together.

One more note...I am starting another blog that is focused only on my cooking/baking passion, so come on over if you love to cook (and eat) like I do!
http://www.dreamgirllisa-adventuresincooking.blogspot.com/ . On this culinary journey, I will be sharing some of my favorite recipes, working on my own recipes, and trying new foods along the way.

You know, I feel better already!

Happy Thoughts,
Lisa

Passion

2011-01-09T14:02:00.000-08:00

“If there is no passion in your life, then have you really lived? Find your passion, whatever it may be. Become it, and let it become you and you will find great things happen FOR you, TO you and BECAUSE of you.”-T. Allen Armstrong

I love this quote, it really fit what I wanted to write about today.

My favorite brownie recipe from Baked, New Frontiers in Baking.

If you've gotten to know me at all through my blog, you know that I have many passions. My children, home, cooking, baking, gardening, decorating, crafting, all things I love and feel very passionate about.

The passion I am writing about today is cooking and baking. It is a passion I learned from my grandmother and mother, who were and are, both amazing cooks.

I grew up eating wonderful food, so it's something I know a little bit about. My mom never served us canned pasta, or packaged noodles. Not to say say we didn't eat Campbell's soup once in a while, but it is my mom's homemade minestrone I remember the most. My Grandmother started up her own bakery in the early 70's, which is still open today and run by my Aunt & Uncle. Mazzetti's Bakery, in Pacifica, CA.

I truly believe cooking and baking are gifts from the heart. You cannot really cook a delicious meal without putting your soul into it. I love using fresh ingredients and making everything I can from scratch. I make all my own salad dressings and do a mean Ceasar salad with homemade croutons, one of my kids' favorites.

I love cookbooks and trying new recipes, but I often don't follow them exactly. I use them more as a starting point, or a basis for something I have in mind to make.

One of my favorite salads: Roasted butternut squash, feta, and spinach, with homemade balsamic viniagrette.

It goes without saying I am addicted to Food Network, and love that cooking has become so "in" these days. I've been watching cooking shows since I was a kid on PBS. I was a fan of Julia Child and Jaques Pepin growing up.

I dream of having a little cafe, open just for breakfast and lunch, where I could have a standard selection of salads, sandwiches, hot dishes, and baked goods, but also have a seasonal menu using what is fresh and in season at the time. I'd also have daily specials, so I could constantly try out new recipes. I love cooking for other people, trying out new recipes on my friends and co-workers.

My youngest daughter has shown an interest in cooking as well, and is often right beside me in the kitchen. She has even started making dinner for us on her own. Last night she made a recipe out of Giada De Laurentiis' latest book Giada at Home. She only allowed me to grate the parmesan cheese and prepare the steamed broccoli on the side (:

This was the past we had for dinner last night, courtesy of my 15 year-old daughter. Giada's recipe for Pasta with mushrooms and mascarpone cheese. We improvised just a little.

I love being able to share this passion with my daughter. I hope to find a way to make this passion more a part of my life, or maybe someday I will get to watch my daughter on Food Network?

Wishing you a life filled with all your passions!

Happy Cooking and Happy Thoughts,

Lisa

Caramel Apple cake from Paula Dean's The Lady & Sons cookbook.

Zucchini Cakes, something I make every summer from our homegrown zucchini.

New York Crumbcake

Salmon

*All pictures cooked, baked, and photographed by me.
Edited- oops, I originally listed the wrong link to Giada's recipe, the recipe actually came out of her book, Giada at Home. It's fixed now :)

Happy New Year

2011-01-01T22:09:00.000-08:00

Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.
~Maria Robinson

Just a few quick words to say "Happy New Year".

I'm feeling a little blue today, my oldest daughter had to fly back to San Diego for school, and my sister and nieces left on Thursday. Needless to say, that was two sad goodbye's at airports for me this week.

My sweet little nieces, I love them so much!
Photo credit - Me

I thought I'd be more used to having my daughter living away at college by now, but it actually seems worse. In the beginning it was new and I was so excited for her...now I'm still excited, but it's not so new and I know it will be a while before I see her again.

Luckily, with technology the way it is, we can chat and skype to keep in touch.

Photo credit - Meric Velasco

I spent most of the day, besides a drive to the airport, taking down my Christmas decorations, so all in all, it was not the best 1st day of the year I've had. My youngest is sick on top of everything else, so it's been pretty quiet around here.

I have had some time to think about what I want to accomplish this year, and even research some volunteer options...but I'll be talking more about that in upcoming posts.

For now, I'm considering my options and dreaming, as any good Dreamgirl should be doing in celebration of a new year.

Wishing you peace, love, and...

Photo credit- Meric Velasco

new endings!

Happy Thoughts and Happy New Year,

Lisa

Christmas and thoughts for the New Year

2010-12-26T17:49:00.000-08:00

Since you get more joy out of giving joy to others, you should put a good deal of thought into the happiness that you are able to give.

- Eleanor Roosevelt

I hope that everyone had a Christmas that was everything they hoped for.

Mine was nice and low key, spent with family, my parents and my girls. On Christmas Eve I made visits during the day to my closest friends to deliver my Christmas cookies. Later that night I hosted dinner at my house for our small family, we had a delicious dinner, and later watched A Christmas Story and White Christmas in front of the fire, it was a nice quiet evening.

Cookies just before I started boxing them up for delivery.

Tonight I will be picking up my sister and nieces from the airport, they will be here visiting for a few days, and I am really looking forward to this, I love these girls so much.

I spent most of today raking leaves and cleaning up (again!), but also thinking of what I want out of the new year. Most of all, is just to be happy.

I've been thinking of what really makes me happy, and without a doubt my family is first on the list. I tried to think of the times in my life when I felt most happy, and love and financial comfort both come into play as well. But something that really sticks out is GIVING. Giving of my myself, through volunteerism. One of the best weeks of my life was probably helping with the Park Playground project I got to work on that I've mentioned before.

The table for Christmas Eve dinner. The girls set it for me.

My challenge to myself for 2011 is to find an organization that I can feel comfortable with, to consistently find the time to volunteer. I will have to do some research, I want to make a commitment and stick with it, and to do that, I must find something I can feel passionate about, but that will also fit around my work schedule. I rruly believe we all have a purpose in this life, and I feel it's important that we try to figure what that purpose is.

What are you hoping for in 2011?

Happy New Year & Happy Thoughts,

Lisa

Christmas Spirit

2010-12-12T09:44:00.000-08:00

The best of all gifts around any Christmas tree: the presence of a happy family all wrapped up in each other.

~Burton Hillis

So I'm trying to get into the Christmas spirit...I finally got my decorating done, started playing the Christmas music last night while we finished up the tree. Now that my daughter is home from college, it's finally feeling like the holidays. Every year I go on the annual Christmas Home Tour in our town, it's a tradition for me and my best friends, sometimes it's the only chance we have to get together all year.

I love these pictures my friend and co-worker took for me.

Last week I made some Chocolate and Peppermint cupcakes for work and that started getting thinking about the baking I will soon be doing for friends and family. Over the years, I have cut back on the gift-giving, so that now I only exchange with my immediate family. Most of the gifts are bought for the 4 girls in my life, my two daughters and two sweet little nieces. I package up little boxes and plates of cookies a few days before Christmas and deliver those to my neighbors and friends and we snack on the rest throughout Christmas Eve and after. My cookie baking has become a tradition in our home, and my girls look forward to it, wondering what favorites I will bake each year. Baked goods and handmade gifts are such a special, inexpensive way to show someone you are thinking of them.

Photos by Meric Velasco, cupcakes by Me!

The past few years, especially since my girls are older and my budget smaller, I have tried to focus on feeling of Christmas spirit over the amount of gifts that are purchased. Spending time with family, baking cookies, decorating, watching the Christmas classics, and listening to Christmas music by the fire are the things I really look forward to during my time off at the holidays.

Family traditions are so important, even if they have to change a little as time goes on and the family dynamics change, it's important we hold on to the little things that mean so much.

What are your family traditions?

Wishing you Happy Thoughts and the magic of Christmas,

Lisa

Girl Power

2010-12-03T22:46:00.000-08:00

Remember, Ginger Rogers did everything Fred Astaire did, but backwards and in high heels.
~Faith Whittlesey

Celebrating all the woman of the world today...
I truly believe that when it really comes down to it, every woman's true strength lies in the ability to believe in herself.

I am constantly amazed at what women can do, will do, and even what they will allow others to do to them, yet they can overcome just about anything. If only every woman out there in this big world really believed in herself and lived up to her true potential, can you imagine the power we could have? It might be more than this world can handle!

There is a special place in hell for women who do not help other women. ~Madeleine K. Albright

Today I am thinking about the incredible strength and spirit women posess. A strong mind, a soft heart, the ability to multi-task like no other, women are truly amazing. The strength, courage, and talent that I see in women each and every day, never ceases to amaze me.

The thing women have yet to learn is nobody gives you power. You just take it. ~Roseanne Barr

Mothers, teachers, doctors, housekeepers, enteprenuers, whatever occupation, religion, sexual orientation, nationality, I can't help but feel that women are the most interesting and complex creatures that walk this planet.

If you think about it, it's usually the support and words of encouragement from a fellow woman that can really bring us through the most difficult times in our lives. Be it your mother, sister, grandmother, best friend, or daughter, only a woman truly understands who we are and how we think.

No woman is required to build the world by destroying herself. ~Rabbi Sofer

Girl Power, such a cliche phrase, really sums it all up though.

Stand tall, be proud and celebrate the gift of being born a woman, because we are AWESOME!

Happy Thoughts,
Lisa

Weekend's over and my bathroom...

2010-11-28T11:37:00.000-08:00

"There must be quite a few things a hot bath won't cure, but I don't know many of them."
-Silvia Plath

So, the Thanksgiving Holiday weekend is just about over, and back to work tomorrow. Being pretty broke right now, we mostly stayed in and watched TV, sat by the fire and did chores around the house and yard. I was determined to get a few things done while I was off. I managed to get the inside of my truck cleaned, mowed the lawn, did some trimming, put away the few Fall decorations I had out and today I'll start pulling out the Christmas boxes. I also got a little online shopping done for my girls. I save all year so that I will have a little money for my Christmas shopping, this is the only way I'd be able to manage it.

My plan of attack this year is to decorate gradually, so I am not overwhelmed with it all. We have some family commitments the next couple weekends, so I'll have to manage my time well. I usually don't accomplish much in the evenings during the week by the time I get home from work and fix dinner. I want to have the tree up and ready for when my daughter comes home so we can decorate it together.

There's been so much drama this year, I am just trying to enjoy the holidays, I mean after all, the problems will still be here waiting in January, right?!?

I love looking at pictures of other people's houses, so today since I have no new photos to share, I thought I'd share pictures of one of my favorite rooms in my house, the bathroom.

I saved a lot of money by shopping around for all
the fixtures and plumbing supplies myself.

I found a guy in a another state who re-mirrored old mirrors, so I was able to keep the original details of beveling and etching on the old medicine cabinets. I mailed him the mirrors and it was still cheaper than replacing the mirrors w/ plain mirrored glass.

This is the original cabinet, I just removed the doors and had the top tiled.

I purchased the old claw-foot tub right after we bought the house, but it sat in my garage for 9 years before it actually made it to the bathroom(I may have talked about this before, so I apologize if you've heard this already!) These pictures are not new, but nothing has changed, I'm pretty content with it just as it is. Eventually I'll have to replace the shower curtain, but otherwise I like the white w/ just a touch of green.

The bathroom was an unusable mess when we bought the house. The toilet was actually wall mounted! Eww, like in a public restroom. When we started pulling up the old tile floor (redone in the 60's, so very ugly) there was a hole in the floor from where the original toilet had been. The door to this bathroom stayed closed for 9 years, really, I mean it, it was really gross!

I had a friend who did tile work and he kind of became my "general contractor". He found me different guys to do the work that needed to be done, such as electrical, plumbling, drywall, wood work, etc. He did the tile work and some of the shower rebuilding, it was all rotted out from water leakage. He was amazing and I saved a lot of money with his help.

I know the photos are lousy, but I didn't feel like retaking them, and my camera is so old, I don't know how much better I can get them. You get the idea though.

When it was finally time to put the tub in, I breathed a sigh of relief that my measuring had been correct and it was really going to fit!

There is nothing like a good soak in a hot bath with a good book for a little R & R. For now though, it's time to haul up those Christmas decorations, the bath will have to wait for later...

Happy Decorating and Happy Thoughts,

Lisa

Changing Traditions

2010-11-21T09:36:00.000-08:00

“If we fill our hours with regrets over the failures of yesterday, and with worries over the problems of tomorrow, we have no today in which to be thankful”

-unknown

This year, Thanksgiving will be a little different than it has been for our family in the past. My father has to work on Thanksgiving, and my grandparents on his side who usually have Thanksgiving with us, are getting older and it has become increasingly difficult for them to travel. So, as it turns out, it is going to be just me, my mom and youngest daughter on Thanksgiving day.

My oldest daughter is away at college and I wasn't able to fly her home this year for Thanksgiving. She will be home soon for her Winter Break, so we decided to postpone Thanksgiving until then. My mother is an amazing cook, and her Thanksgiving dinner is anticipated for weeks ahead. Changing a long standing tradition this year has been a little depressing. Not having our little family together on this special day is not something we would have ever chosen. My youngest daughter is having a hard time with the idea. I've explained that we must be positive and it won't always be like this. Some years are just harder than others.

My mom is going to treat us to see Harry Potter on Thanksgiving, so the three of us will spend the day seeing a movie together. The night before Thanksgiving, we will have a nice family dinner together with my parents, but the traditional Thanksgiving menu will be saved for when my oldest can be home to share it with us. She will be with my sister and her girls on Thanksgiving day, so even though we won't all be together, we will all have family to share the day with.

I received a package in the mail yesterday that put it all in perspective. A friend I have "met" on flickr and through the blogging world sent me a beautiful little sign. I have a love of words, and these reminded me to always focus on the positive-

She wrote in a card to me that when she saw this, it reminded her of me, because I always try to be positive. Her words alone meant so much to me, and her gift was so very kind. Thank you so much Val! Someday maybe we will actually get to meet in person. Val is getting married next year, so please join me in wishing her and her future husband a lifetime together filled with love and happiness.

Wishing you a very Happy and "Thankful" Thanksgiving and Happy Thoughts,

Lisa

Give Thanks is hung in our kitchen to remind us to always be thankful.

It's the little things in life...

2010-11-14T15:11:00.000-08:00

I am beginning to learn that it is the sweet, simple things of life which are the real ones after all.

-Laura Ingalls Wilder

More and more I stop and cherish the little things in life, the day to day treasures, whether they be kind words or simple pleasures.

A phone call from a friend you haven't seen in a while, a compliment when you need it most, a card in the mail, hearing your favorite song on the radio at just the right time, or just a few hours of quiet alone time with a cup of coffee and a good book or your favorite magazine. These small, but important moments in our lives, are the ones that help us stay sane, in a world that sometimes feels like it's falling apart.

Homemade cookies are a little thing that can put a smile on anyone's face.

Watch the news on any given day, and you will undoubtably be depressed after hearing about the all the turmoil and violence going on in our world. As much as I want to stay connected to what's going on around me, sometimes I want to hide from it. There is so much hardship and pain, it really makes me stop and think, are my problems that important? Well, of course we all have our own personal struggles, but looking at the big picture, our problems can seem so small in comparison to what some people face in their lives on any give day.

It's the little things that keep us from sinking into a perpetual state of despair when it seems like we have no control over what's happening to us. Sometimes, it's just as simple as taking the time to stop and look at the beauty and nature that is around us. In our busy lives, it's easy to forget how beautiful this world we live in really can be. For as much as there is pain and heartache, there is beauty and kindness. Whether it's a the magical beauty of a full moon, the wonder of a rainbow, spending time with your children, whatever is beautiful to YOU, it's really a personal thing.

Time spent with our friends and family, in our very busy lives, is one of the most important of the little things in our lives. The little moments, the day to day acts of kindness, these are so important, and must not be forgotten.

Keeping a picture of your loved ones at your desk at work, making your family's favorite dinner, baking a cake or treat for someone's birthday, taking the time to stop and talk to someone when you are rushing through your day, or sitting by a cozy fire with your family on a cold night, these are the little things that help us and those we love and care about get through the day, yet they are really the important things that keep us all connected.

My wish for you is that you treasure all the little things in life and that you remember one small act of kindness can mean the world to someones else.

Happy Thoughts,
Lisa

Keeping the Faith

2010-10-30T14:44:00.000-07:00

Faith is courage; it is creative while despair is always destructive. ~David S. Muzzey
This morning I spent a few hours at the park across the street, doing repairs on the community built playground that I got to be a part of 3 years ago. It was one of the most amazing 5 days of my life. I met some incredibly nice and giving people and got to be reminded of how a community can pull together and do amazing things. The park across the street from my house was nothing more than a large campground for homeless transients, who used the park to drink and do drugs in. This city park has been around for many years and has beautiful established trees throughout, but because it had been taken over by less than savory people, it never got used by the children it once attracted.

The crew of volunteers getting the playground done in an amazing 5 days!

The city finally listened and there was some available grant money to fix up the park itself, then some wonderful community members got together and formed a committee to build a fabulous new playground. I could go on and on about the build and all the meetings and organizing that led up to it, but I will just tell you that the playground is now the best in the city. Everyday, this park that hadn't entertained kids for years, is now full of them all day long. I have never been so proud of something I have worked on. I have a vested interest in this park, because it's so close to my house. Even though my girls were grown by the time the park finally got cleaned up, my nieces can play there when they come to visit me. They love to play at "the park across the street", it even has a tire swing :)

Spending the morning sprucing things up, really helped to put my mind in a good place. With all the stress I'm dealing with over the trial that is coming up this next week, I really needed some positive perspective.

One of the food tables, our job (the food committee, all 2 of us!!) during the build was to feed all the volunteers.

I am trying to stay strong, but I worry everynight as I try to fall sleep, how will I pay my bills if my ex gets his way? How will we have enough money for groceries? Will I have to work two jobs to keep us afloat, and how will that affect my daughter who will be home alone so much? I have never felt so unsure and anxious before, and it's hard not to let it all get to me.

Faith, Love, and Courage, that is what I am focusing on. The faith that things will turn out how I need them to, and the courage to figure it all out if it doesn't. And most importantly, the love I have from my daughters, who know exactly where my heart is.

Last week, my oldest daughter posted what she likes about me on my FB page. You can't imagine how good I felt when I read her beautiful words:

" i like you because you're an amazing mom who is a positive, strong, selfless and beautiful woman and perfect role model. you don't care about material things or money, you would rather devote your life to making sure your daughters have a good education & life & it's sad that some people choose not to see that. you know what's important in life and have taught me & lissy that we can do anything we set our mind to & to never give up on our dreams. :)"

My wish for you is that you will always have Faith, Love, and Courage in your heart, to see you through the good and bad times.

Happy Thoughts,
Lisa

A slight detour...

2010-10-24T12:25:00.000-07:00

“Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength.” -unkown

Today I am blogging about something that I wish I wasn't. I decided to address something publicly that I am dealing with personally.

As I've mentioned before, I am a divorced mother of two beautiful daughters. My family and my home are the two most important things in the world to me, if you know me personally, you already know that.

I decided to keep our family home when my ex-husband and I separated, and bought him out of it by refinancing the mortgage.

I've talked about my house before, and how hard I've worked on it over the years, especially the last 7 that I've been living alone with my daughters.

The house was in bad shape, still needing major work done when he moved out. I pride myself in knowing how to make something out of nothing. I am a true DIY person. I have improved my house by my willingness to work hard and my passion for crafting, sewing, painting, and gardening, whatever it takes to make my home warm, comfortable, and welcoming. I live on a shoestring budget, but I was lucky enough several years ago to inherit some money from my grandfather, so that I was able to finish up most of the major rennovations and buy a few new pieces of furniture. I finally put in the picket fence that I had dreamed about for years. We don't have the latest technology, no large flat screen or surround sound, no fancy stereo equipment, laptops, cameras, or luxury cars. My yard was not professionally landscaped, I did most of the work myself, after I had the lawn put in, I planted everything else and finished the sprinklers on my own.

I am now being questioned about everything I have done. My ex-husband has decided he no longer wants to pay the spousal support he agreed to when we divorced. We were married over 16 years and we both made concessions when we came to our final settlement agreement. He had an affair, and chose to leave our marriage. I was devastated at the time, but over the years I have come to be comfortable with my new life and cherish it.

We are now back in court. It's a very unsettling thing to go through, not to mention an invasion of my privacy, filled with accusations that question everything I have worked so hard for and what I do that makes me happy in my life. I truly wish I did not need this money, but living on a single income, and paying for the needs of my daughters, especially with one in college, I do at this time. I have struggled financially since my oldest daughter turned 18 and I not longer receive child support for her.

He has been following me my on my blog, even printing some of my posts, submitting them as exhibits, so that he can somehow try to use it against me in court. I cannot begin to tell you how stressful and upsetting this has all been. He has taken something I love doing, my way of expressing who I am and what I love about life, and is now bringing it into a courtroom so he can try to show it in a negative light. It has caused me to question whether I should even continue writing a blog. I can't help but feel a little bit like I am being stalked.

I am not asking for sympathy, I have put myself out there, my blog is open for anyone to read, it certainly does not detail everything going on in my life, I have tried to focus mainly on the positive. I have struggles just like anyone else does, but my blog has been a place talk about what makes me happy and meet others with similar interests.

I don't have money for a lawyer, but my ex has one. I am going into court alone, hopefully with the strength I need. This week his lawyer is taking a deposition from me. I have never done anything like this before, so of course I am nervous and don't know what to expect. I feel like I am at a disadvantage by not having an attorney to represent me.

All the stress is taking a toll on me, I am not sleeping well, I've had to spend hours preparing paperwork and filing documents with the court. I work full-time so I've had to take my own personal necessity time off work to take care of everything.

I feel like I am forced to defend myself about how I live. My daughters are behind me 100%, they know first hand how hard I've worked and the sacrifices I've willingly made so that I could give them a good childhood filled happiness and fun. Without their love and support, I couldn't do this. I feel a deep sadness for my ex-husband, he has lost what it is to be a father. He refuses to speak with our girls, and I can't imagine the emptiness he must feel, not having them in his life. I worry about them and how this will affect their future relationships with men.

I will hold my head high in the next couple weeks, and remind myself that I cannot control the outcome. I can only speak from my heart, and that's what I intend to do.

Happy Thoughts,

Lisa

A Girl can dream...

2010-10-17T11:51:00.000-07:00

Keep your dreams alive. Understand to achieve anything requires faith and belief in yourself, vision, hard work, determination, and dedication. Remember all things are possible for those who believe.” -Gail Devers

Someday I dream of owning and running a bed and breakfast...I think it is the perfect job for me. I love cooking and baking, decorating, gardening, taking care of others, all things related to home and family. I've been like this for as long as I can remember.

When my sister and I were little, we used to play restaurant. She happily played the customer, while I was both waitress and chef. I'd make menus and create my own dishes, pepare her food and serve it to her "resaurant style".

I have always been fascinated by bed & breakfasts, the personal service and homey atmosphere, so different from a normal hotel stay. I have so many ideas of what I might do, special events for holidays, appetizers in the afternoon, treats set out at night for guests returning from a dinner out, a big beautiful breakfast, where I could try out all the recipes I want to make someday. I would love to have outdoor seating as well, where guests could sit and read the local paper in the morning with their coffee, or enjoy the sun setting at dusk with glass of wine.

Doesn't it all sound so dreamy?

Recognize this beauty from "Father of the Bride"?

I dream of buying a big, old white house and having guests who I can pamper and fuss over. Meeting new people while they are away from the daily stresses of their normal lives really appeals to me.

How about this charmer, one of my favorite movie houses from "Practical Magic".

I love meeting new people and hearing the stories of their lives. Making people feel good is something I truly enjoy.

This is actually a realBed & Breafast I found for sale in Mendicino, CA.

Who knows, maybe someday my dream will become a reality...I'm never going to give up on it. Without our dreams, we really have nothing, at least that's true for this Dream Girl. Maybe someday I will have you as my guest....

Happy Dreams & Happy Thoughts,
Lisa

The Girls in my life...

2010-09-22T14:15:00.000-07:00

"What greater thing is there for human souls than to feel that they are joined for life - to be with each other in silent unspeakable memories."
~George Eliot

Today it is with melancholy in my heart that I write this post. You see, I have just arrived home after driving from Southern CA to my home in Northern CA. I had to leave behind my lovely 19-year old daughter, my beautiful sister, and my two adorable nieces, 4 of the 5 "girls in my life".

This was one of the most emotional drives home yet, and I've done this trip quite a few times now in the past couple years. For one, it was the first time I drove home by myself. Being alone, I gave myself permission to cry, to just let the tears flow for as long as I needed.

In the wee hours of early morning, I quietly slipped out of my sister's house, after having said my goodbyes to all the girls the night before. The drive is much more bearable leaving very early, avoiding the traffic that is common on this route. I like the serenity of driving in the dark too, seeing the sun come up along the way. There was the most magical full moon this early morning, and I felt like it was there just for me, offering me a guiding light on my journey home, as I felt the overwhelming grief of leaving part of my family that I love so much. It was bittersweet, as I also felt the anticipation of returning home to my youngest daughter, who was not able to come along this time due to a busy school and sports schedule.

There is a certain amount of stress in my life right now, and being away for a few days immersed in the job of caring for my nieces and sister (she recently had surgery), and helping to get my daughter settled in to her new apartment, gave me little time to even think about it. Until now, that I am home and it's time to face the reality of it all. I needed to be away, from work and from home for a few days.

These are my nieces, Sahara (top) and India (below). I forgot my camera on this trip, so had to find pictures from June when we visited last.

My daughter's on-campus apartment. A little messy at the moment, but getting there. I made her a little colorful banner for over her bed. I have more ideas for decorating it...those apartments are do drab!!

Even though at times my daughter drove me crazy being home for a long summer, with her "college-life" schedule and messiness, it was so hard to leave her once again. She's a good girl, and she gives me little to worry about, but a mother never stops worrying, does she? Being there for my sister and her girls, when I felt they really needed me, was so important. I wish I could have stayed longer. It's so hard living far away, I miss them all the time.

It's always good to be home, but a piece of my heart is definitely left with them. I will be counting down the days until I see them all again.

Happy Thoughts,
Lisa

Life and the Pursuit of Happiness...

2010-09-11T22:28:00.000-07:00

Happiness is excitement that has found a settling down place. But there is always a little corner that keeps flapping around.
~E.L. Konigsburg

I'm in that crazy place again, where there just isn't enough time in the day and I'm so tired every night. The beginning of the school year at the school I work out has started with a bang and only slightly slowed down. As I have mentioned in a previous post, we are down several teachers, so our classrooms are bursting at the seams, and it's taking it's toll on the teachers.

In the office, things seems even busier, I think in these difficult times and with changing demographics, familes are that much more needy. I feel for them, but the types of issues we are seeing in the office now have little to do with education. It can be very draining, but I still love my job. Seeing all the new little kindergartners at the beginning of the year is always heartwarming.

Things at home have been hectic as well. My youngest daughter decided to start playing tennis this year for her high school. So, she's now playing tennis and soccer, she's also involved with Student Government, and somehow got on Yearbook a year early. I am so proud of her, but also a little worried. I think she might be overextending herself. She has all these extracurricular activities on top of her heavy load at school being in AP classes. She's so tired every night, it's hard to see her like that. I think two sports might be a bit too much for her right now, so I'm looking forward to that easing up.

My oldest daughter turns 19 next week! 19!!! I can't believe it...I will be driving her back to La Jolla to move her in to an on-campus apartment. It will be a quick trip, as I am trying not to take too much time off work. It's a bittersweet time, I'm happy to see her start her second year in college, but I will miss her being home too.

Personally, I have been faced with something that is unpleasant, so I am trying to stay postive and keep upbeat. My ex is trying to end some of the financial support he agreed to when we divorced, so he has taken me to court and now I have the burden of trying to keep the much needed support in place. I do not have the financial means to hire a lawyer, so I am doing all the paperwork myself. It's proving to be a very daunting job, but I'm doing my best. With all the loss and grief in the world, I know this is very trivial, but it is still something I am struggling with.

Various little treats for the kids.

Personalized Candy Bars

I am lucky to have the support of many wonderful friends and family. Without so many people in my life that care about me, I don't know what I'd do. I also have the love of my two daughters, which no amount of money can ever come close to. I am sad for my ex-husband that he doesn't see this.

Mini water bottles for thirsty little kids.

Last weekend, I spent the better part of two days making fun little favors for my niece's 6th birthday party, which is tomorrow. Unfortunately, I can't be there to join the party, but all my little goodies will be. I can't wait to see pictures of her and her little friends celebrating. My parents brought everything down this week for her, and my mom will help with putting it all out and making it a special birthday party for her. I have mentioned before how much I adore my nieces, they are absolutely precious to me. Crafting is a great way for me to relieve stress, so I truly enjoyed spending my time creating all the goodies I made.

Hoping you can find something that helps with the everyday pressures and stresses of life.

Happy Thoughts,

Lisa

R & R

2010-08-21T09:49:00.000-07:00

Everything you do can be done better from a place of relaxation. - Stephen C. Paul

Recently I returned from a very relaxing mini vacation to one of my favorite places in the whole world, Lake Tahoe, CA/NV. For those of you from California, you surely know this beautiful place, and those of you not from around here, an explanation in words just doesn't do it justice.

For the past 5 summers, I have been taking my daughters on our "all-girl" trip to Tahoe ( as we like to call it). We are lucky that my Aunt & Uncle have a rental home there, and they let us stay whenever we want for just the cost of the cleaning fee. It's a cute, cozy little cabin filled with hand-me-down furniture that reminds me of my grandmother, since much of it was hers when she was alive.

The cabin is just minutes to the casinos (on the Nevada side) and shops S. lake Tahoe is famous for, but also minutes from the lovely beaches that run along the lakefront. Since we started this tradition, we have explored and experimented with the many activities that are available in the summer. This year, we kept it low key and spent our days getting pedicures, seeing a movie we all agreed on, and lounging at the beach. Tahoe is known more for it's Winter sports, skiing in particular, but we prefer being there in the Summer. The weather never disappoints, usually lingering around 85 degrees, and the air is always clean and fresh.

This year, my girls did not bring along friends as they usually do. I let my oldest go up a few days ahead of me with a few of her friends, so they all left by the time my younger daughter and I arrived. I was a little worried they would get bored and want to go home early, not having any of their friends with them. Overall though, it was a great trip and I really enjoyed getting to spend some quality time with both of them, which is so hard to do now that they are teenagers, and my oldest off at college most of the year.

I am never able to relax at home the way I do when I'm there. It's like I become a whole different person, away from all the responsibilities, chores, and work that are part of my everyday life at home. I enjoyed myself so much this time, it was very hard to leave.

For the first time, since we started these annual trips, I drove completely around the entire Lake, which is about a 72mi. drive along winding roads that run parallel to the edge of the lake. On part of the drive, there are hair-pin turns and drops on both sides of the 2-lane highway. There are charming cabins and cottages nestled amongst the evergreens all along the way, as well as Tahoe City about half way through, which is filled with cute little shops and restaurants. We stopped there for a leisurely lunch, dining outside, as we determined how long it would take us to get back to our cabin if we continued on and made the full circle around the lake.

In the end, we decided to go for it, and it was the most beautiful drive I have ever been on.   The afternoon sun made the lake literally glow and the view from the road as the light changed, was stunning. We even got a little "tropical" weather this time, with a slight sprinkling of rain along the way, although the temperature remained in the low 80's.

I have decided that rest and relaxation are highly underrated, and are an absolute must in order for this busy mom to keep her sanity.

In just a few days I will be back to work, soccer practice has already started, AP camp begins next week for my youngest and the hectic pace of Fall will soon be upon us. My rest and relaxation is already becoming a distant memory, but a sweet one for sure!

Our view from the table at lunch, so relaxing!

My girls on the front steps at Rosie's.

Our little table on the porch at Rosie's

Had to show a picture of this yummy Butterfinger Ice Cream pie...we did all 3 share it!

This summer, I am wishing all of you at least a few hours, if not days, of complete rest & relaxation.

Happy Thoughts,
Lisa

*Note-I originally wrote this the day we came home, but I have been having computer troubles ever since. My daughter fixed me all up, so now we are back up and running :)

Friends, Family, Celebrating

2010-07-09T10:43:00.000-07:00

"Good homes are still the best source of good humans."
-Neal A. Maxwell

It's hard to believe the 4th of July has come and gone already...summer is quickly flying by. Even though I'm trying to treasure to each day, it's going fast. I enjoy my days off at this time of year soooo much, I have to work on enjoying each day, rather than focusing on the fact that my vacation is half over already!! (Ugh, I said it!)

I am finally getting to my Summer "to do" List....I cleaned out under my bed (lots of dust and shoes!), cleaned out the fridge, well almost, I still have the Veg./Dairy drawers to tackle, and redid some patio chairs that got pretty trashed over the past Winter. I used oil-cloth this time, so they are water proof and will just need to be occasionally wiped down.

Our 4th of July was quiet this year, the city I live in decided to cancel the Annual Fireworks show this year due to budget cuts and the poor economy. This was really sad, as it was such a long-standing tradition here. The fireworks are set off in our downtown area on the Riverfront, and because I live in this older, downtown area, we were able to sit in our front yard and watch from home, while we ate dessert.

Just as fun as watching the fireworks display, though, was watching all the people cramming downtown. I love people watching, and we always had unexpected guests drop-in to say hi or watch the fireworks with us. My hope is that next year the city will bring this time honored tradition back again. I still put up all my 4th decorations and we had a little BBQ w/ family, my neighbor, and a couple of my girls' friends. We did our own little fireworks show in the backyard, so all in all, it was still a nice day.

I have been walking with my girlfriends regularly, swimming at my parent's house and hanging out, having coffee and talking w/ the girls whenever possible. One of the promises I made myself this summer was that I would stay in touch w/ friends and even make new ones. I love time w/ the girls, both my friends and my daughters. Life is too short not enjoy every moment to the fullest, I am I trying to remember that each and everyday, even when the pressures of life try to get me down.

Wishing you a Wonderful weekend and Happy Thoughts,
Lisa
Linking up today w/ Cindy over at My Romantic Home
www.romantichome.blogspot.com

My Garden Retreat

2010-06-25T11:36:00.000-07:00

I'd rather have roses on my table than diamonds on my neck.- Emma Goldman

This quote is totally and completely me. I would sell a piece of jewelry (if I had anything valuable enough), for a rose plant or any garden flower, for that matter, without a bit of hesitation.

I love to garden. I am not a professional in any way. I am completely self-taught. I learn mostly by trial and error...a lot of error, actually ;)

If something doesn't make it, I just plant something else in it's place. It's kind of survival of the fittest in my garden. Shabby Chic, with more "shabby" than "chic" comes to mind as well.

I could have a much tidier yard, if I wanted to spend every waking moment outside....which I wouldn't mind, except that there is all that other bothersome stuff, like housework, kids, grocery shopping, work, etc. I don't have the budget for a gardener, but I'd really rather do the work myself, it's something I truly enjoy. This works for me, nothing in my house is perfect, I have a lot of chipped furniture, homemade curtains, etc. I am OK with that. I am not rich, my budget is small....but I do what I can to keep myself surrounded with the lovely, pretty little things that mean so much to me. I am very visual, and beauty is objective, which is what I love about it. What is beautiful to me, might be just an old cast-off to someone else. That's what makes this world such an amazing place.

For now, I am enjoying my summer mornings outside, before the kids are up, drinking my coffee, dead-heading my roses, sweeping up after the squirrels and birds who feast on my plum and almond trees, content w/ my little corner of this big beautiful world.

Happy Gardening & Happy Thoughts,
Lisa

I am participating in My Romantic Home's Show & Tell Friday &
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Summer List

2010-06-20T16:25:00.000-07:00

Cut not the wings of your dreams,
for they are the heartbeat and the freedom of your soul.
-Flavia

My "official" summer is finally here, I finished my last day of work for this past school year, and now I don't have to report back to my "9 to 5" job until August.

There is so much I want to do in the next 6 weeks, both fun stuff w/ my family and friends, and projects and tasks around my house.

I know that no matter how hard I try, I won't get it all done. I am not being a pessimist, it's just that I always put way too much on my plate, so it winds up being literally impossible to to do it all. That's ok though...if I can get just some of the "to do's" off my summer list, then I will be happy ;)

First off, I need to make my list, if I don't, I will never focus enough to get started on all that I want to accomplish.

Making the list is the first step. Some of the items on my list will be things I want to do "someday", not necessarily this summer, but most will be things I can accomplish within the next few weeks. I love being able to check off items on my list as I finish them. There will be fun things, like day trips or trying new things, like making homemade pickles, and chores that I never seem to find the time to do, like cleaning out under my bed (ugh!) and de-cluttering my closets. There are those projects I started that haven't been touched in weeks (or months!), that will make me feel so good when I can finally finish them. Then there will be the simple things, such as read a new book, or take time to sit in my garden and soak in all the nature around me.

Something I'm dreaming of right now, that cannot be accomplished this summer, but hopefully someday in the near future, is attending a women's retreat called Brave Girls' Camp. I had heard about it a while ago in a blog that I enjoy reading regularly called A Bushel & A Peck. From what I can tell, it is 5 days of women getting together for fun, food, creating, and support. Women from all different backgrounds & locations get to have a sort of big slumber party together. That's my interpretation of it anyway, check out the website and you can decide for yourself. It just sounds like something I would love to do someday, so I'd like to start saving up for it and make it a reality.

As I have mentioned before, I truly believe that women need each other in so many important ways. We all love our kids, our boyfriends, husbands, etc., but having girlfriends, mothers, or sisters, to confide in, to lean on, to share stories, hopes, and dreams, is so important. As women, I strongly feel we need to stick together. No one understands a woman more than another woman.

Now, it's time to get that list started and enjoy SUMMER!

Happy Summer & Happy Thoughts,
Lisa

Life and other updates..

2010-06-05T12:05:00.000-07:00

Any idiot can face a crisis - it's day to day living that wears you out. -Anton Chekhov

I've been so busy lately, even though I've really wanted to take the time to blog, I just haven't been able to stop and do it.

Work for me right now is busy, but also getting ready to wind down. Since I work at an elementary school, the end and beginning of the school year is always the busiest. In some ways, things have calmed down for me personally at work, since we got a new secretary, and I am back at my old desk again. I had mixed feelings about it at first, although it was not something me or my boss had a choice in. In the end, like everything else in life, it seems to have worked out for the best. I have more time to work on other projects, and I feel like I am back in the right place, as the receptionist, and getting to interact more again with the parents and kids. Plus, I have a new co-worker who is easy to work with and makes my job pleasant. We are a team now, which is something I never had before.

The farmer's market job I had talked about in past posts has unfortunately not panned out so far. My guess is that the their booth has just not been profitable enough yet to hire someone else to work it. I know that if it is, she will call me, we definitely had a good connection and she knows I can handle the job. It's like I try to remember, everything seems to work out in the end. If I had been called to work at the market every weekend a couple of months ago, I don't think I could have done it with the extra time and stress I was dealing with at work. It's funny how life works out like that...

These days, it's taking all my weekend time working on my garden, house-cleaning and hanging out with my daughter. I am also trying to find time for the occasional girls' night with my besties.

A little work shower gift for my boss who is getting married in Hawaii this summer.

Recently 6 of us got together for a movie (Sex & the City) and dinner, and it was nice to just hang out and talk with these "girls" again(I will always consider myself a girl, no matter how old I am!)...it had been way too long. I am looking forward to my 6 weeks off for summer, and plan to have a couple girlie get-togethers at my house. I love to cook for and entertain my girlfriends and I have not been making that a priority for a while.

My little gift/treat for all my girlfriends for our Sex & the City night.

Women have a way of empowering each other like no one else can, and I consider my time with my girlfriends very uplifting and therapeutic. I am a strong advocate for "Girl Power" and think woman can do anything we set our minds to.

Next up is a quick trip to San Diego to pick up my college student daughter and a short visit with my beloved sister and nieces. I am looking forward to seeing all my girls and having my daughter home for summer.

Wishing you a wonderful week and Happy Thoughts,
Lisa

Garage sale friends

2010-05-22T11:36:00.000-07:00

"Tart words make no friends; a spoonful of honey will catch more flies than a gallon of vinegar."
-Benjamin Franklin
Last weekend we decided to have a very impromptu garage sale...the "we" being my 14 year-old daughter and I. We literally made the decision on Thursday night. The motivation here was money, we were going into the weekend pretty broke, so we thought it could be a quick way to earn a little cash for a trip to the grocery store and to get rid of some stuff we've been piling up in the garage.

The thing I love about garage sales is the people. I love meeting new people and hearing stories about their lives. Anyone who knows me, knows that I am a true "people" person. At work, I am the first person you see when you walk in our office, and the first person to pick up the phone when calls come in. This job seems to suit me, I enjoy meeting knew people, helping them fix a problem, or whatever else they may need.

My garage sales are usually pretty successful, I prepare myself to accept the sometimes ridiculous offers that come in, and remind myself this is all just "stuff" and things I haven't used or looked at in a long time. I live on a busy corner, so I never need to advertise in the newspaper, a couple signs thrown up in the morning and a free add on Craigslist and post on FB are all I really need to grab the attention of any deal-seeking, treasure-hunting souls.

My parents brought over some items of their own to sell, and inevitably, in true garage sale style, along with a pocket-full of cash, I ended the weekend with a few extra "treasures" that my parents were planning to get rid of.

I also gained some "friends", an offer to trim a tree, and a reminder that there is a big world out there, filled with all sorts of interesting people, who might find my junk to be their treasure.

I can't wait to spray paint this little treasure, from my room when I was a little girl :)

Happy Thoughts & Happy Garage-Sale-ing!

Lisa

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In loving memory

2010-05-10T19:38:00.000-07:00

Of all the rights of women, the greatest is to be a mother.
-Lin Yutang

I have so much I could say about the joys of motherhood and how much I cherish my role as mother to my wonderful daughters.

But today, my heart is full of sadness over the loss of a dear woman who I had the pleasure to know and work with. She was a beautiful lady, who consistently showed grace, integrity and strength in all she did, as well as during her long battle with cancer.

Today, my heart aches for her husband and three children who are left behind to mourn the loss of someone who can never be replaced. I can't even imagine, it's too painful to even try.

The best I can do to honor her is to let it remind me to cherish each and every day I have here on earth with my wonderful family and friends. Life is fragile, and can be taken away at any moment. Sometimes it takes a tragic event to put things in perspective.

I count myself extremely lucky that I was blessed with a lovely Mother's Day spent with my youngest daughter and parents. My daughter cooked us a delicious meal and it was a day spent reflecting the blessings I have. I missed my oldest daughter, but can take comfort in knowing she will be home soon.

In loving memory of Nancy... teacher, friend, wife, mother.

Happy Thoughts,
Lisa

Home

2010-05-06T20:26:00.000-07:00

There is nothing like staying at home for real comfort.
~Jane Austen

Home is truly my favorite place to be. I love to travel, and see new places, although I haven't done a whole lot of that so far in my life, but home is where I feel the most comfortable.

My home has been a work in progress for the past 14 years. When my ex-husband and I first bought it, it was a complete fixer-upper. None of the plumbing worked properly, the electrical had not been updated in many years, and could not accommodate a family's modern-day needs. It was virtually in a state of disrepair when bought it. It was months before we could actually move in, and even then we were only living in a few of the rooms.

It was smelly, dirty, crusty, and dark. What in the world was I thinking when I dragged my husband, kids, and mom back for a second look?? The bathrooms were old and dark and needed to be completely redone. The final room I viewed on my very first tour was the kitchen. As I walked down the four steps to the kitchen, my heart sank. We had been looking at enough old homes to know that the kitchens and bathrooms cost the most to repair and remodel. This kitchen was literally crumbling in places. The tiny little tiles around the sink, were rotted and you could pick them off w/ your fingers. There were dirty stains and drips all over the walls. When we turned on the sink faucet, the water was brown, and it poured right out from the pipes underneath.

Although the windows were dirty and foggy, over the kitchen sink there was the most amazing view of our City Park directly across the street. It was dusk the first time I went through, and the light was beautiful. Something in that view and the light at that moment had me hooked. I wanted this house.

What in the world possessed us to buy a house that needed so much work, when we had so little experience with remodeling and construction? I will never completely know. I had watched one too many episodes of "This Old House". I had a very romanticized view of old houses, I was hooked on the character that these homes possess. "It has so much potential" became our catch phrase.

After an inspection of the foundation and structure of the house, we were assured it was a good, solid home, built with quality craftsmanship.

We had very little money. I can't even explain our logic. We were dreamers and completely clueless, really. Our blind faith and ignorance propelled us into a home-buying venture, that I have both regretted at times, but also been grateful for.

Now I am a single mom, and this home is my girls' and my castle. I have put my heart and soul in this house, and it has seen both good and bad times in our lives. It has been many painstaking years of renovation and improvements, and by no means is it "finished".

It will probably always be a work in progress, but it has come a long way. I have given up on the idea of perfection. All the chips, imperfections, and quirks of my house are what give it the character that I cherish.

Home is definitely where my heart is, and I think my daughters feel the same. In future posts, I will show you some more pictures of the inside of my home, before and after.

Wishing you a place of comfort and Happy Thoughts,
Lisa

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Grateful

2010-05-01T07:59:00.000-07:00

Gratitude can transform common days into thanksgivings, turn routine jobs into joy, and change ordinary opportunities into blessings.  -William Arthur Ward

Today is was not the quote that inspired my musings, but the feeling...grateful, or being full of gratitude, for the blessings in my life. Just the definition puts a smile on my face, in part - "positive emotion or attitude in acknowledgment of a benefit that one has received or will receive".

When the stresses of daily life become overwhelming, I have to stop and remember that I truly am grateful for many things in my life.

There are the obvious, such as my beautiful daughters, comfortable home, and supportive parents. I am also grateful for the wonderful staff and boss I work for and with at the school I work at. The parents who surprise me with Starbucks, or take the time the say thank you, or that they appreciate me.  I am grateful for the students who present me with their precious artwork that I can hang over my desk.

                                                             Isn't she cute?

I am also grateful for the things that are considered in our modern lives as a necessity. My truck, for example. I never thought I'd drive a truck. My ex-husband always had one, I mean lots of "guys" drive them...but me? I barely ever drove his when we were married. I have always dreamed of owning a Volkswagen Bug. You know, Herbie, that cute little car with personality? After my divorce, as my car was nearing the 10 year mark, and my oldest daughter was nearing 16, it was time to start thinking about a new vehicle. Now, car shopping is one of my least favorite things to do...I don't like the wheeling and dealing that goes on. I decided to keep it simple and buy my next car through an online broker.

When I started really looking at my life, I realized I needed something bigger than my beloved Bug. So, three years ago, for my 40th birthday, I bought myself a truck. It has a backseat that is the same size as any car I've ever owned, so driving the kids and their friends around is still possible. I love not having to find someone to help me pick up larger than average items. I am always working on my house and garden, so there has been many times my trusty little truck has not let me down. I love being so high up, I kind of feel like queen of the road, even though overall my truck is not that much bigger than the Camry I used to drive. Road trips to Tahoe and San Diego are a piece of cake now that I have the room to haul whatever we need. I can't imagine now, how I would have moved my daughter in to college without my truck.
I even have sticker on the back that reads: "Silly boys, trucks are for girls".

As you can tell, I really love my truck : )

What are you grateful for in your life?

Wishing you gratitude and Happy Thoughts,

Lisa

All packed up for Tahoe

A little bit of crazy

2010-04-20T19:36:00.000-07:00

The best way to cheer yourself is to cheer somebody else up.

-Mark Twain

I think I need to really take this quote to heart....it's time for some serious cheering up. I'm feeling a little "crazed" at the moment...

I'm working too hard, too long, and way too stressed.

I don't really like "me" that much right now. I'm tired, grouchy, and overwhelmed. Do you ever feel like this? Dumb question, right? Life can just be so heavy sometimes...work gets in the way of all the fun. I'm looking for that balance in my life right now that is so important.

I haven't had any time to be creative, and it's wearing me out, physicallyl and emotionally. My spirit is a little crushed at the moment and I've got to make a change...fast!

One of my favorite things to do these days for fun and inspiration, is what I like to call "blog-browsing". There are so many clever, talented, creative women out there with the most amazing blogs...I thought I'd share some of my favorites.

This first one, I just found today, she is an amazing food photographer and baker, and only 19 years old! (She was even on Martha Stewart today, although I haven't seen the episode yet) The Whisk Kid

This next blog chronicles a mom of 5 kids, she writes funny, touching stories and also shares her photography, which is gorgeous: Whatever

Here is another great, inspirational blog I frequent often: A Bushel & A Peck

This is a fun blog I found recently that is great for decorating ideas, she seems especially gifted at finding great deals: A Place for Us

This last blog is from a "friend" of mine I met online. She has shared countless ideas, recipes, etc. w/ me and her readers. She is kind, generous and creative, I really appreciate how helpful she has always been: Glorious Treats

These are just a few of the many blogs I like to check out regularly, for ideas, inspiration and sometimes just a good read.
Hope you have time to check them out and enjoy!

Mary always cheers me up

Well, I think It's time to put things in perspective and remember all the positive things in my life. I think cheering someone else up might be just what the Dr. ordered...now, just who and how?

to be continued...

Cheerful days and Happy Thoughts,

Lisa

Spring Fever

2010-04-08T20:09:00.000-07:00

It's spring fever. That is what the name of it is. And when you've got it, you want - oh, you don't quite know what it is you do want, but it just fairly makes your heart ache, you want it so! ~Mark Twain

Yep, that's me...I've got it, the old Spring Fever. I don't know what to do first...plant my garden, finish those overdue projects, Spring clean the house...ugh...too much to do and not enough time!

I've ony had one full day of my Spring break at home so far...and with only three more left, I'm probably not going to get it all done, but I'll try...I'll kill myself trying!

I love this time of year, more than any other.

My roses are starting to bloom, everything is green, the longer days, kids playing in the park again after a long, cold winter. The whole feeling of renewal...it makes me want to eat better, exercise, start something new.

Tomorrow my garden is really going in...I'm a little late this year, or it feels like it anyway. I usually don't wind up putting it in until Spring break, which was later this year than last. Right now, I have piles of clippings, weeds and dead plants around my backyard, waiting for space in my always full "green" can. Tomorrow I'll call my neighbor and see if hers has room, she's always so nice about letting me use it.

My yard is about a third of an acre, most of which is landscaped one way or another (there's still a hidden corner of the property that is overgrown w/ weeds this time of year). I do not have a gardener. I do all the yardwork myself. I don't mean to "toot my own horn" here, but it's a lot of work, I really do enjoy it though. I find gardening very theraputic. I have the best conversations with myself when I'm mowing the lawn...not sure why, maybe it's the repetition, or the steady roar of the motor. I come up with all sorts of great ideas while I mow...unfortunately sometimes I've forgotten them by the time I get back in the house :)

Yesterday I cut the very first spring blooms of my roses. I have a lot of rose bushes now...it makes for a lot of pruning in February, but once they've been pruned and fertilized, they are really easy to upkeep...and so worth it! I love being able to go outside and cut my own bouquet, filling up an empty spot somewhere in the house.

I find it hard to sleep in at this time of year too, I'm always so anxious to get up in the morning and get outside...I love the quiet in the early morning, when the sun is first rising and no one else is up yet.

Ahhh Spring...

Wishing you Spring Fever and Happy Thoughts,

Lisa

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My little Loves

2010-04-05T16:10:00.000-07:00

“There is no doubt that it is around the family and the home that all the greatest virtues, the most dominating virtues of human society, are created, strengthened and maintained”
-Winston Churchill

I have been spending the past few days with all my favorite girls...my sister, Lori, my nieces, India & Sahara, and my own girls Kristil & Alyssa. Being around little ones again is filling my heart with so much love and joy. They are so precious, I wish I could take them home with me.

My sister and her husband are separated and she does not have family living close to her. She doesn't get much of a break from full-time mommy duty, and all of you mommies of toddlers out there know how exhausing that can be.

I am thrilled to be able to help her a little, I only wish it could be more often. Tonight they will be staying w/ their dad, and it was a difficult parting. I have just one more day of fun with these two little munchkins, and it makes me sad.

Sunday night, my sister and her girls and I all slept together...she has a huge king size bed that easily fit us all. My youngest daughter told me she was cold during the night and didn't have me to tuck her feet under...how cute is that? What more could a girl want than her nieces and daughter fighting over who she will sleep with. Last night I split the night with them...I guess I'm kind of playing musical beds :)

On Saturday I had the girls all to myself...I took my oldest niece with me shopping for groceries (Trader Joe's & Henry's) and to Target. We were gone for hours and she was an angel the whole time...I spent a bit more than I intended and the girls had new Tinkerbell nighties when all was said and done. We got home, unpacked our groceries, made homemade cupcakes and frosting, then I fixed dinner, we ate, cleaned up and the little ones and I took a walk in their neighborhood. We ended the day with coloring eggs and we were sure to remember to leave carrots out for the Easter bunny. It was a wonderful and exhausting day! Sunday morning was Easter and we got to watch them go on their Easter egg hunt.

I will be sad to leave my daughter who is back at school and my sister and her girls...my heart is so full of love for all these beautiful little and big ladies. I am blessed to have them in my life.

Happy Thoughts,
Lisa

Opportunity

2010-04-01T21:07:00.000-07:00

"In the middle of difficulty lies opportunity."
-Albert Einstein

Over the past week, I've had some big changes at work. I eluded to what was happening a little last week (or so). This past Monday was my first day in my "new" position, and although it is temporary, I will be in my new job for the next several months for sure. I am being given an opportunity to learn a lot of new things at work, that could eventually help me earn a better income. Unfortunately I was left with no training, but luckily I have a supportive boss and understanding staff at the school I work at. I will definitely have "hands-on" training on good days, or "trial by fire" on more challenging days.

Our entire staff is facing challenges of it's own with the budget crisis California is dealing with, and in particular the cuts being made to education. We are losing several wonderful teachers on our campus and many more district-wide. It will be a bittersweet end to our school year, one that will affect us all in one way or another. It's so important we all try to remain positive to help keep the morale up.

With the changes I'm dealing with at work, and the chores I have in my garden with spring here, I have had to make some decisions about what I have time for and what I don't. I've decided that my baking is going to have to be put on the back burner for a little while. Several factors helped me make this decision...1) Too many sweets hanging around my house, lots of "taste" testing and leftovers. 2) Time - there's just never enough...baking is time consuming and messy. 3) Priorities - I have a lot more responsibilities at work right now, with a lot more to focus on I may need to stay late sometimes while I'm learning the new job. It's a little overwhelming right now, which can wear a person out...so standing on my feet baking and cleaning up from it for an addtional hour, or two, or three after I get home from working an 8+ hour day is not sounding too apealing right now.

As a single mom, I already struggle with finding the time and energy to spend quality time with my kids and get all the house and yard chores done each week. I usually spend most of my weekends on these tasks, but I also know it's important to have some "down-time" too. I have been trying to make time to read more like I used to, and I'm still working on my custom candy bars, which I can work on before I go to sleep at night or very early in the morning before work. I'm finding my 6 hours of sleep aren't always giving me the rest I need to work all day, fix dinner, tackle a few chores. Getting to bed definitely needs to be a priority, as is finding time to exercise more. With the weather warming up, I like to spend more time outdoors, and baking does not go along with that...I still love to bake, but the pressure of taking orders and having a deadline are more than I want to deal with, for now, at least.

I'm excited for this week to be over, as my youngest daughter and I are taking a little road trip and will head to Southern CA to visit my daughter in college and my sister and nieces. I love these four girls and can't wait to spend a few days hanging out with them. When I get home, I hope to work in my backyard and put in my garden, it's all cleared out and ready for planting.

I wish you all many positive opportunities...no matter how difficult they seem.

Happy Easter, Happy Spring, and Happy Thoughts,

Lisa

This is my sister, Lori on the left, isn't she gorgeous? And not a drop of make-up even! With her, and below is my beautiful little niece India.

Here are all the girls, mom/grandma included. That's me in the turquoise, next to my younger, skinnier sister :)

Change

2010-03-22T19:12:00.000-07:00

One must never lose time in vainly regretting the past or in complaining against the changes which cause us discomfort, for change is the essence of life. -Anatole France

In the coming weeks and months at work, I will be faced with some major changes. I like to think they will be good changes, but of course, not w/out challenges. I am choosing to be positive, and do my best, that is all I can really ask of myself.

I will go into these next days and weeks with an open mind and heart, knowing I will learn a lot about the new position I will be in, as well as about myself and how I can handle it.

It is no secret that being a career girl is not my biggest dream, being creative is where I really feel most comfortable and happy, but I also really enjoy the people I work with and the variety my job offers. It also pays the bills, so "quitting my day job" at this time in my life, is not an option.

I feel the next three months will let me know where I fit best and that the path I will ultimately follow will be a little clearer to me.

I am happy that I took a few days of work this week to spend time with my daughter, who is home for her Spring Break from college. We had a wonderful weekend having lunch out, and visiting my uncle, who just finished up his cancer treaments, and who we hope is on the mend. He lives in the beautiful coastal town of Half Moon Bay, what a lovely drive it was.. I always cherish taking car trips with my girls, it's a great chance to talk with them, see new places and visit family.

Little by little I'm getting my garden and front yard into shape, although there is still much to be done. I am looking forward to the week off during my Spring Break in a couple weeks to get more work done, but also take some time to relax, read, and start exercising more regularly. I went on a long walk with one of my good friends a couple days ago after work, and although it wiped me out, it also felt good to get moving. I like to call these my "walk & talks", they are fun and rejuvinating.

I will keep you posted as to how I am doing in my new postion at work and the new atmosphere that I am looking forward to.

I hope that whatever changes and challenges you face, you can handle with grace and optimism.

Happy Thoughts,
Lisa

Peanut Butter Pie w/ Homemade fudge sauce

Tiramisu Cupcakes